So I've been feeling SUPER stressed and a little overwhelmed lately. Being a single mom is starting to get to me a little bit. I've had a very happy baby the past 3 months but all of a sudden the past few days he has been professor cranky pants. I think it's cause ever since I've had to change his formula his stomache has just not felt well at all. He only poops once a day if that, farts constantly and lets out the loudest burps ever. If it's his tummy I can usually calm him down by holding him face down and walking around the house. Thats only been working for a few min though. So then I try the gas drops and they seem to only help a lil bit. I know he's starting to teethe already too but he HATES teething rings and binks. The only thing he likes to chew on is my fingers, his hands or his bottle nipple. I finally got some teething tablets today so hopefully they will help.
On top of all that I've been trying to get him on a sleeping scheduel. The first 3 nights it was no problem. I'd put him in his crib for a nap around 1 and he'd sleep in there for about an hour, wake up and then I'd put him in bed with me and we'd nap for about another hour or so. Bed time was going good too for a few days. I'd give him his last bottle and put him in his crib between 8-8:30. The first few nights he stayed sound asleep until about 1am when I would then bring him in bed with me cause after that he still wakes up pretty often to eat, or just suck on a bottle. If he would take a bink it would make it alot easier, cause I know he just wants to suck but instead I give him about an ounce to eat and he goes right back to sleep. The past 2 nights on the other hand he has been up wayyyyy past his bed time. Last night he didn't go to sleep until 1 and tonight it was around 10:30. I told myself I would just let him cry it out for a little bit but I just think he's still a little too young for that. I just dunno right now. I'm lucky though cause when he sleeps with me we've been sleeping in till about 10 but then he doesn't take long enough naps during the day. He just seems to be over tired and I'm torn on what to do.
And to make things even more stressful I have a research paper due soon for my Pharmocolgy of Psychoactive Drugs class. I try and get some research done while he's sleeping but he just hasn't been staying asleep long enough. And when he is asleep I always choose to do laundry and clean bottles first cause he HAS to have clean bottles to eat and my mom bitches if theres laundry out. Tonight I got REALLY frustrated cause I was trying to let him fuss just a little bit in his crib cause I knew he was tired and I HAD to get some research done. He started freaking out so I went and got him. My mom knew I had alot to do but still decided to just sit there and not offer to help me out just by holding him for a few so I could get some homework done. She seems to do that alot. But I have a REALLY hard time asking for help when I need it. I know it's not her kid, but still, I'm kinda doing this all by myself and need some help every so now and again. It's not like I ask alot from her. She never has to change diapers, wash dishes, do his laundry or any of that. I even cook dinner for us pretty much every night. I just dunno right now. I just keep telling myself this stage is not forever and I will get through it cause simply, I have no other choice.
But above it all, all I have to do is look at his sweet little face, hug him, hold him, and kiss him and all my problems just dissapear for those few moments. I know I'll come up on top. God wouldn't put anything in front of me that he knows I cannot handle. Plus who could resist this sweet smile. Look at those dimples! lol
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